Best Friend & Deep Love

U may not sense or having this feeling, but some one or perhaps lots of people (that i know) are once or maybe right now have something like this particular situation..

i watched a movie last night, i forgot the title but it's sarah jessica parker who played that movie, its about 2 best friend who didn't realize they're in love until one of 'em missing from their life!

its a tragic if we realize that we're in love with our best friend on the day he/she get married/died! We cried, we're sorry, dissapointed for not telling how we exactly feel for her/him from the beginning..

So what the connection with deep love?

Do u really know what deep love is?
Real Deep?
And the definition is.. ?

Back years ago, i was thinking that i know the answer..
i Feel passion, i feel like im on fire, i feel desire, i feel like i want to meet her every day and every hour! And that's i thought it was deep love..

Now, i awake that it wasn't the meaning of deep love at all, that was just the beginning of our feeling for him/her. Deep love mean when u love someone, u try to uphold ur relationship, never give up on her/him, not easily being erased of what u feel for just little 'distraction', love her/him just the way they are -not much, not less-

When he/she is ur best friend for a years furthermore for more than 5 years, (Opposite Sex) there's always a chemistry between both of u either u realize it or not! Like a movie called "When Harry meet Sally", when the first time harry met sally, he said "There's no such a realationship called friend between man and woman, in the end its all about sex!"

Yes, its not always about sex! i agree, i also never get to that subject when i make friends, but he has a point! 'Sex' can be define as like or attracted to someone, right? Commonly, we never realize it.. Once we feel for for it, he/she is already have a date or maybe get married! After that, the world seems 'different' to you.

By time, u realize that u're in love with her/him. whether is 'just' love or deep love..

Now i have a deep love with my best friend! At first, i doubt that it was love, coz she is my best friend, that doubt kept me waiting for years until i know its the truth and get my brave to tell here that i love her..

Now, although one thing or another we can't have a relationship and based on that she told me to 'back-off' for a while, i continously try to fix the 'thing' that blockage our chance. I may not calling her as often as yesterday, i may not express how i feel again to her, i may move on with my life! but she's always 'sit tightly' in my heart. When she told me that, i thought i would easily forgot her and try to date with someone else, but i found it difficult.. i may try to look for another girl but my heart and my mind will reject it!

I have already feeling 'big' for someone, that someone is my best friend! i maybe naive, there's a plenty girls and woman out there, but i wont spend for the rest of my life 'knit' a relationship with someone i dont feel comfortable with.. And u're the one im comfortable with, my best friend, my enemy, my light, my partner, my half breath!